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I won't lie.. I find this whole thing rather messed up. I do love you and want to be with you more than anything but it gets hard. I just get in these moods and I don't want to take them out on you but at the same time you don't help.

I'm just really confused right now and I dont know what I want... But I could never tell you that...

you

I get so caught up in the ideas and thoughts about us that i forget about reality a lil. I just want us to be together, i want your touch, yours kisses, your hugs, to hold hands with u. to be able to look deep into your eyes and tell you that i love you. to make this love of ours something even more amazing than it already is. i need you.

to my sm!

I never knew that there was a love like this. You open my mind to new things everyday. I took a chance with you and let you into my world, into my heart. Now I can't picture my life without you in it. Everyday I fall more in love with you. As crazy as it sounds, you know me in ways no one else does yet at the same time you don't know me. But I don't care because I have never met anyone who just understood me from day one. Way back however long ago it was.

I know if we didn't have this distance between us things could be different but as much as I hate it, I love it at the same time because I just want and need you more. It really is like some creepy obsession, I can't get through my day without you, I am completely addicted to you. And I just love every minute of it.

You are so very special to me and I never want to lose what we have.
You are my soul mate..
I love you

which way..?

Taking the leap.. but in which direction..?
Do I wait for you and hope that is all works out.. or do I try something that is already there waiting for me? Either way I'm taking a risk..

Taking that leap

Sometimes we have to take that leap. Trust someone enough to let them in.
But I guess its all part of experiencing life and taking risks. You can't guard your heart forever.
So here goes...

Because I wanted to.

We all go through hard times, struggle, experience heart break, loss and whatever else you want to add to the list.
The fact is, eventually you have to let it go. You have to move on, don't forget but don't live in the past.

So welcome to READY.SET.GO !


Today, I was having a shit day! Just feeling run down and tired! Usually I stick it out then go home and sulk about it. TODAY I was like screw this, I don't want to be here, so I won't be. I left work early. Why BECAUSE thats what I wanted to do. It felt good.